I am ready to return to work. Actually I have been ready to return to work for a while now...lol. I give so much credit to stay at home mom's but it's just not for me. I love getting up early, dressing up, having adult interaction and being able to return home clear headed and ready to be a mom.
Don't get me wrong, I have enjoyed being home. I have enjoyed sleeping later and playing with the kids but I have missed...me. I feel like I am losing myself. That must sound so selfish. I know that for a lot of moms out there, this is who they are and that is great. But this is not who I am. I mean, I am a mom and I think that I am a pretty good mom but I am a better mom when I am not stressed and I am enjoying time with my children. I think that I am spending too much time trying to defend my feelings. Truthfully, they are what they are.
So I have been actively looking once again and of course, we all know the economy has not fully bounced back yet so it isn't easy. I know that something will come along. I know that any company would be lucky to have me and I know that I can I sell myself...that sounds bad but you know what I mean. I have to make myself marketable. I have another interview on Friday with another agency and I keep applying for anything out there that I am qualified for. Something is bound to fall into my lap sooner or later. I am trying to stay focused because I know that if it's meant to be that it will happen. Until then, I am happy spending my free time with my three crazy children who seem to be growing up way too quickly.
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Slow & Steady Wins the Race
So for those of you that don't know, I am attempting to get healthier. I have been trying to do this for a few years but this time I just decided to jump in. I just started on Tuesday. I have been doing a workout routine every day so far but I will not be disappointed if there is a day that I can't find time to do it. Along with the exercise, I am also changing other small things. I have been drinking a LOT more water. That is actually an understatement since I actually don't like water and have never been able to do drink a lot of it. Now I am drinking close to 14 glasses a day at 16 oz each. That is pretty good. And the more I drink, the more my body craves it. That is one craving that I can give in to.
I also wanted to add that today was Diana's shower and I was a bit worried but totally prepared to not eat as healthy as I have been trying to. Well I think that I did great. I had fresh fruit, one pancake and a fruit & yogurt parfait (is that how you spell that?). Then it was time for her to cut her cake and it was....cheesecake. I did great though. I took two bites. It was the best cheesecake that I have ever tasted but the two spoonfuls were enough to kill my cravings. We went out for drinks afterwards too and again I think that I made some decent choices. I had a Corona Light instead of a calorie packed Margarita. I did however have loaded nachos, which I am sure had some loaded calories but since that was basically my lunch, I think it was ok. Now it is past dinner time and I have to admit that I am still not hungry. I am once again having another glass of water to quench my thirst because my body is asking for it. I am getting ready to do my 20 minute intense workout for the second time today so I am feeling really good today !
I hope that I can keep this up.
I also wanted to add that today was Diana's shower and I was a bit worried but totally prepared to not eat as healthy as I have been trying to. Well I think that I did great. I had fresh fruit, one pancake and a fruit & yogurt parfait (is that how you spell that?). Then it was time for her to cut her cake and it was....cheesecake. I did great though. I took two bites. It was the best cheesecake that I have ever tasted but the two spoonfuls were enough to kill my cravings. We went out for drinks afterwards too and again I think that I made some decent choices. I had a Corona Light instead of a calorie packed Margarita. I did however have loaded nachos, which I am sure had some loaded calories but since that was basically my lunch, I think it was ok. Now it is past dinner time and I have to admit that I am still not hungry. I am once again having another glass of water to quench my thirst because my body is asking for it. I am getting ready to do my 20 minute intense workout for the second time today so I am feeling really good today !
I hope that I can keep this up.
Friday, July 15, 2011
Getting Back on Track
It has been a while since I wrote last. Since the last post, we have moved to RI to our wonderful new home. I get asked a lot if I like being back in RI and my answer is almost always the same...I still feel like I am on vacation. Although Jose goes off to work each day, I am home and the kids are home so it doens't quite feel like our normal lives.
Our house is great. It is starting to feel like home. Jose did an amazing job picking out the house. It really is us. The neighborhood is family oriented and great but we have yet to branch out and really meet our neighbors which are a majority our ages. There are tons of kids in the neighborhood but since the kids have not started school yet, they have not forged relationships yet either. I have a few pics of the house that I will post on here. They were taken a few weeks ago and some progress has been made since then. My biggest issue is that I just want to throw things out...lol. I know that sounds weird but with each move we have tried to downsize our stuff regardless of the space that we are moving to. In this last case we moved to a much bigger space than we had, or at least I think that it is because that is how it feels. But even with all the stuff that we got rid of, we still have so much shit in boxes...please excuse my french...lol. I have a lot more unpacked than I did in the last move but it still feels like too much stuff. I really need to find a way to get rid of everything I don't want. I have learned that I am happier with just a few things that I love instead of a ton of junk that I just like. Who would have thought...lol?
The kids are adjusting. Larissa will be a senior at Lincoln High School and she is going to summer school right now for Geometry. She has a packed schedule as a senior. All her classes are classes that she needs to pass in order to graduate and that is not normal for Larissa. It will not be an easy year to say the least but her advisor is amazing and has complete faith that together we can all make this happen. Nathan will be entering 8th grade and he too will be presented with a struggle from the beginning. He failed English and Math last year so he will be starting behind also. I have met with his advisor as well and she is going to be watching him from the beginning to make sure that he gets the extra help that he needs before it is too late. CJ will be starting Kindergarten this year as well. I went to his school and registered him. It seems really nice. He is excited about riding the school bus...lol. Over all the school systems seem amazing and I am impressed. One of the main reasons that we moved was because of the education and at this point, I am feeling like that might have been a mistake. That is a whole other post all together though and it is too soon for me to make any decisions or any remarks about the school system.
I am not working yet but will be looking for something soon. I give stay at home moms so much credit for all of their hard work but it is just not a job for me. I love having this time with my children but I feel that I am a much better mother when I have been away and have much more patience with them. Being away makes me sane and able to deal with the trials of the house and family. Being in the house all day long and then all night long has slowly began driving me insane.
I feel that this post is long enough now so here are some pics:
LARISSA'S ROOM
THE BOYS ROOM
OUR BEDROOM
OUR BATHROOM
OUR LIVING ROOM
Our house is great. It is starting to feel like home. Jose did an amazing job picking out the house. It really is us. The neighborhood is family oriented and great but we have yet to branch out and really meet our neighbors which are a majority our ages. There are tons of kids in the neighborhood but since the kids have not started school yet, they have not forged relationships yet either. I have a few pics of the house that I will post on here. They were taken a few weeks ago and some progress has been made since then. My biggest issue is that I just want to throw things out...lol. I know that sounds weird but with each move we have tried to downsize our stuff regardless of the space that we are moving to. In this last case we moved to a much bigger space than we had, or at least I think that it is because that is how it feels. But even with all the stuff that we got rid of, we still have so much shit in boxes...please excuse my french...lol. I have a lot more unpacked than I did in the last move but it still feels like too much stuff. I really need to find a way to get rid of everything I don't want. I have learned that I am happier with just a few things that I love instead of a ton of junk that I just like. Who would have thought...lol?
The kids are adjusting. Larissa will be a senior at Lincoln High School and she is going to summer school right now for Geometry. She has a packed schedule as a senior. All her classes are classes that she needs to pass in order to graduate and that is not normal for Larissa. It will not be an easy year to say the least but her advisor is amazing and has complete faith that together we can all make this happen. Nathan will be entering 8th grade and he too will be presented with a struggle from the beginning. He failed English and Math last year so he will be starting behind also. I have met with his advisor as well and she is going to be watching him from the beginning to make sure that he gets the extra help that he needs before it is too late. CJ will be starting Kindergarten this year as well. I went to his school and registered him. It seems really nice. He is excited about riding the school bus...lol. Over all the school systems seem amazing and I am impressed. One of the main reasons that we moved was because of the education and at this point, I am feeling like that might have been a mistake. That is a whole other post all together though and it is too soon for me to make any decisions or any remarks about the school system.
I am not working yet but will be looking for something soon. I give stay at home moms so much credit for all of their hard work but it is just not a job for me. I love having this time with my children but I feel that I am a much better mother when I have been away and have much more patience with them. Being away makes me sane and able to deal with the trials of the house and family. Being in the house all day long and then all night long has slowly began driving me insane.
I feel that this post is long enough now so here are some pics:
LARISSA'S ROOM
THE BOYS ROOM
OUR BEDROOM
OUR BATHROOM
OUR LIVING ROOM
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Thanking God
I feel like it is necessary to take a moment and seriously thank God. Those of you that know me well, know that I pretty much always do what I set out to do. There are some big believers in "The Secret" and that you get what you put out there to the Universe. Although I also believe in this, I have a higher belief. I believe in God and that God can make all things possible.
When we made the decision as a family to move back to RI, we knew it wouldn't be easy and that it would require a lot of work because it was not something we were prepared for at all. As it turns out, every step of the way has actually been pretty painless. Every step of the way, I have been talking to God and asking for his help on this journey. With each step, he has answered my prayers.
Of course I put positive thoughts out into the Universe. But the positive thoughts come from the fact that I know God will hear my prayers and answer them as he sees fit. I trust that how they unfold is how they are meant to be and that he will always be there to help me through it. I trust completely in God and his power to make things happen.
Our journey so far has come together rather quickly. Jose found a job shortly after he started looking even in a tough economy. He was able to go up to RI early and spend some time with his mom and help us find a home. The house hunt also came along rather quickly. Some of you heard me complain about how long it felt but serioulsy, it wasn't long at all. The house is almost packed. The truck will be here tomorrow and loaded on Saturday. The kids are finishing up school next week and taking exams. Then we head out next week. Some would say that we have been pretty lucky. Luck had nothing to do with it.
I want to thank you God for always looking out for me, for always leading the way, for always answering my prayers and for always making me feel loved. I know that during these very hard times, it is You that is carrying me.
When we made the decision as a family to move back to RI, we knew it wouldn't be easy and that it would require a lot of work because it was not something we were prepared for at all. As it turns out, every step of the way has actually been pretty painless. Every step of the way, I have been talking to God and asking for his help on this journey. With each step, he has answered my prayers.
Of course I put positive thoughts out into the Universe. But the positive thoughts come from the fact that I know God will hear my prayers and answer them as he sees fit. I trust that how they unfold is how they are meant to be and that he will always be there to help me through it. I trust completely in God and his power to make things happen.
Our journey so far has come together rather quickly. Jose found a job shortly after he started looking even in a tough economy. He was able to go up to RI early and spend some time with his mom and help us find a home. The house hunt also came along rather quickly. Some of you heard me complain about how long it felt but serioulsy, it wasn't long at all. The house is almost packed. The truck will be here tomorrow and loaded on Saturday. The kids are finishing up school next week and taking exams. Then we head out next week. Some would say that we have been pretty lucky. Luck had nothing to do with it.
I want to thank you God for always looking out for me, for always leading the way, for always answering my prayers and for always making me feel loved. I know that during these very hard times, it is You that is carrying me.
Monday, May 16, 2011
Busy, Busy, Busy
To say that I have been busy would be a huge understatement. This weekend I packed up my entire master bedroom and master bathroom, including walk in closet. Then Larissa and I started on the kitchen. We probably did about 50% of the kitchen and most of the living room too. I had all this energy and motivation. Then it all died down because we ran out of boxes...lol.
So I have to stop at Home Depot or Lowes to get a bundle of boxes and continue my packing frenzy. The truck will be here next Thursday and the 28th will be our official loading day.
And work has been no exception. I have been training people on my job and the days seem to pass so quickly which is a good thing when you are at work. Like I said...busy, busy, busy.
But not too busy to spend a little time with my kids. I took them to Cici's yesterday evening and then we got ice-cream. It was a great way to end a very productive weekend.
So I have to stop at Home Depot or Lowes to get a bundle of boxes and continue my packing frenzy. The truck will be here next Thursday and the 28th will be our official loading day.
And work has been no exception. I have been training people on my job and the days seem to pass so quickly which is a good thing when you are at work. Like I said...busy, busy, busy.
But not too busy to spend a little time with my kids. I took them to Cici's yesterday evening and then we got ice-cream. It was a great way to end a very productive weekend.
Thursday, May 5, 2011
The things we do for love....
Aint that the truth ! It sounds like such a cheesey saying but it's so true. Not in the new love, teenage sense but in the really true love after many years sense. It is so hard to believe that Jose and I have been together for almost ten years. I guess we can't really count the ten years since we weren't together for a year and a half somewhere in the middle of it all. Even through that time when we weren't dating though, we were still the best of friends and our relationship was still growing.
I have been insanely stressed with our upcoming move. It's a lot to take in at once and the planning has been over the top...even for me. But I am trying to stay focused on how lucky I am to have the most amazing man in my life by my side. The hardest part of this whole move is that we will be apart for 4 weeks. I am sure that military wives out there would laugh at my mere 4 weeks but it is a big deal to me. I have comfort in knowing that he will be looking for a place for us to live and he will be there waiting for us to continue our lives together. Sappy, I know !
Many people have asked if we have thought this whole thing through. Trust me when I say that we have thought it to death ! People ask if we had thought about him going up by himself and me staying here with the kids. I am a mess thinking of the 4 weeks we are spending apart, can you imagine and undetermined amount of time? Besides, I wouldn't dream of not being there myself if something happened, not letting CJ enjoy this time with his grandmother and not being there for Jose should something happen. He is my rock and I would like to think that I am his as well. We get through tough times together...that is what we do. And that is what we are doing. This is the best decision for our family. This is where we need to be. And whatever home he finds for us will be wonderful because we will be there as a family together.
I have been insanely stressed with our upcoming move. It's a lot to take in at once and the planning has been over the top...even for me. But I am trying to stay focused on how lucky I am to have the most amazing man in my life by my side. The hardest part of this whole move is that we will be apart for 4 weeks. I am sure that military wives out there would laugh at my mere 4 weeks but it is a big deal to me. I have comfort in knowing that he will be looking for a place for us to live and he will be there waiting for us to continue our lives together. Sappy, I know !
Many people have asked if we have thought this whole thing through. Trust me when I say that we have thought it to death ! People ask if we had thought about him going up by himself and me staying here with the kids. I am a mess thinking of the 4 weeks we are spending apart, can you imagine and undetermined amount of time? Besides, I wouldn't dream of not being there myself if something happened, not letting CJ enjoy this time with his grandmother and not being there for Jose should something happen. He is my rock and I would like to think that I am his as well. We get through tough times together...that is what we do. And that is what we are doing. This is the best decision for our family. This is where we need to be. And whatever home he finds for us will be wonderful because we will be there as a family together.
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Is it really May already?!
It's May. Mother's Day is Sunday and Jose will be heading out in the morning. I am very happy that I will get to wake up Mother's Day with him. I am also very happy that he gets to see his mom on Mother's Day too. Once he leaves, the crunch begins. There is so much to do and so little time. Thank goodness I will be busy while we are apart or it would drive me crazy. With three kids and a house to pack...I should be very busy...lol.
Things are off to a good start though. Jose starts work next week. Both the kids schools have them scheduled for exams for June 1st and 2nd. Our leasing office for the house has been notified and we have done all the proper paperwork. I have a quote from the moving company. Mayi's flight is booked. And our house search is well underway. That is some good progress.
I still need to notify CJ's daycare. Call the utility companies to set up a shut off date. Make sure I drop off all the equipment to Time Warner Cable. Oh and pack the whole house of course...lol. All this while still doing the daily job of cooking, cleaning, homework and playing. Yeah, I will be busy.
Things are off to a good start though. Jose starts work next week. Both the kids schools have them scheduled for exams for June 1st and 2nd. Our leasing office for the house has been notified and we have done all the proper paperwork. I have a quote from the moving company. Mayi's flight is booked. And our house search is well underway. That is some good progress.
I still need to notify CJ's daycare. Call the utility companies to set up a shut off date. Make sure I drop off all the equipment to Time Warner Cable. Oh and pack the whole house of course...lol. All this while still doing the daily job of cooking, cleaning, homework and playing. Yeah, I will be busy.
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